Not Morbid, but Contemplative.
And Life raised her voice a little higher and said,
‘You hear him now!’ ”
-Kahlil Gibran
Am I doing what I ought to be with the time left to me? Have I contacted everyone I’d want to be in touch with? Have I let people know how much I appreciate their concern, their assistance, and especially their humor? Do my friends understand that my life would be lesser without them?
Have I gathered up as many loose ends as possible? Is there anything important that I’ve left in an unfinished or ambiguous state? Is there some extraneous piece of my life lying in the back of a drawer or in the corner of a closet that needs to be given a final resting place in the dumpster?
There are so many things I want to do. I know I’ll never get to do all of them, even under ideal circumstances. But is there something important I can do now, something important that I should do now? If so, what’s stopping me?
Have I loved well enough, so that the man I love knows without question how I feel? Have I given as much as I’ve taken? How will I be remembered when he thinks back on these past years, and on these past weeks? Will the first thing that comes to his mind when he thinks of me be these terrible last few months, or did I make the good times good enough so that those will be the primary memory he’ll have of us?
Why did it take this to make me realize that these are questions I should have been asking myself during my entire adult life? And can I make people understand that this isn’t resignation talking and that this is not dark entry? I’m not preparing to die. I’m preparing to live.
by one who has lived wisely.
Buddha
Live.
{{you}}
A poignant and meaninful entry for all of us, for who knows what we are in store for? My thoughts and prayers are with you. *smile*
A wonderful wake up call. Thank you for once again jolting the rest of us as you simply express yourself.
I don’t think you are being morbid. You are being thoughful and responsible.
Thanks for a great entry.
A wonderful entry.
Any words I could say would only detract from this.
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Morbid, no. I think those are questions we all should ask ourselves frequently. The world would be a far different place if we did.
~QE
There’s a lot of wise words there
Yea, I know what you mean—I have been thinking about that very thing too since my last ER shift…
i’m grateful that i’ll know you forever. this is a beautiful entry.
I didn’t view your entry as dark for one second while reading it and understand completely. I’ve asked myself some of the very same questions just this afternoon and asked them of James as well (or rather asked him to ask these questions of himself). As you know he faces deployment on a daily basis and I was trying to help him see that he doesn’t face it alone, but rather, as a couple, we face it together and needed to live each day to the fullest not knowing the outcome. In the larger scheme of things…do any of us really know the outcome? Let us all start LIVING!
Wonderful entry!! 🙂
Hugs & Love,
Lauren
Sal, speaking only for myself, it’s the good times that linger forever in the mind.
(((HUGS)))