Ten years ago …
From Worthums to Sweetstar to me:
10 years ago…
1. I was 35 years old.
2. I had been married thirteen years.
3. I had just returned to college to redo all my undergraduate science and math courses in preparation for applying to veterinary school.
4. I was scared shitless.
5 years ago…
1. I was 40 years old.
2. I had been married eighteen years.
3. I was in my third year of veterinary school, totally stressed and messed.
4. Five years ago today I was a month and a half away from what would prove to be the single biggest life-altering event I have experienced to date.
5. I was still scared shitless.
2 years ago…
1. I was 43 years old
2. I was in the process of finalizing my divorce.
3. I had been in my current job for less than a year.
4. I was making decisions on my own for literally the first time in my life.
5. I alternated between being scared shitless to being overwhelmed.
1 year ago…
1. I was 44 years old.
2. I was living with The Professor while trying to maintain friendship with the ex.
3. I was getting the hang of making decisions on my own.
4. I was frustrated with the demands of making a new relationship work.
5. I still have my moments of being scared shitless.
Today I…
1. I am 45.
2. I’m still with The Professor.
3. I’m discovering that friendship with the ex sounds good on paper, but probably isn’t going to happen.
4. I suspect that I’m going to continue to find things to be scared shitless of for the rest of my life. I also suspect that facing those things and working through them is part of what life is supposed to be about.