And I’m still frustrated, and I’ll even admit to being a little fearful. The ascites (which is what my “bloating” is – free fluid accumulating in the abdomen) continues to worsen. I slept for perhaps two hours total last night. There is no way to lie down comfortably any more. When I got up this…
I’m vaguely ashamed of myself. As this illness, whatever it is, continues to get a little worse each day, I find that I am pulling more and more into myself. My patience is the thing that I miss the most. I used to be one of the most patient people I know. It never before…
SNAFU: Systems Normal – All Fouled Up. Yes, I know most of you know another, better breakdown for this acronym. Keep in mind this journal is rated “PG” and we don’t use “fucked up” in here. I got my echocardiogram a few hours ago. In the spirit of “It’s a Small World After All,” my…
It would appear that I need to give the company doctor more credit. Unlike what I was given to expect, this morning’s check-up wasn’t any big deal. He’s willing to let me continue with my duties here at work, so long as I don’t over-do. I’m perfectly willing to comply with that; it rather fits…
A small grey kitten, its head twisted nearly one-hundred and eighty degrees, with its forehead pressed against my chest. Heavy, gurgly purrs while I stratch that spot under the chin that is so awkwardly presented for attention. Eight little talons on her back-legs, giving her the assurance she needs that she isn’t going to slip…
I had a friend (who I’ve noted is a tad more insightful and observant than your average person) observe to me recently that I haven’t seemed happy for a while. He’s right, of course. At least, he’s right on one level. Not being happy doesn’t mean that you know what’s making you unhappy, though. I…
I dealt with things as I usually deal with unpleasantness when I have the opportunity. I slept in. On the down side, getting up at 10:00 still meant I had less than 8 hours sleep. Part of my sleeplessness was a wee problem I’m having with hemorrhoids at the moment. Actually, not so wee hemorrhoids….
I’ve been kicked out of work. My boss talked to HR today about my little health problem. I have to see the company doctor sometime Monday, and the company doctor has to confer with my regular doctor before I’m allowed back to work. They’re afraid I am a “liability” and if anything happens to me…
I went to work today, but I’m not concentrating on much. It isn’t that I’m sitting here worrying about things; more like I just can’t keep my mind fixed on any one thing for too long a time without it wandering elsewhere. This alarming tendency of my grey-matter to go AWOL had best cure itself…
Spent most of the morning under general anesthesia while they explored the nether regions of my alimentary tract. What they found was exactly what they found last January – generalized mild to moderate inflamation, with no obvious cause. What I do know now: I have ascites (free fluid in my abdomen). So this recent weight…